Rant.

I really dislike it when someone judge me just because I've already started wearing the hijab. Their perception and mindset is certainly flawed and narrow. They think that once someone starts to wear the hijab, she cannot make any mistake at all. Like for instance, I really hate it when someone says. . "Eh aku ingatkan kau dah berubah? Tapi macam sama jer." whenever I make a small joke or when I do something inappropriate which is not even considered a sin. Pshhh, it is annoying. There's a difference between attitude and personality. Personallity is something which defines you- it is what makes you unique from other individuals. You can have a shy personality, outgoing personality blah blah blah whatever, but I just want to say that YES all MUSLIMAHS WHO WEAR THE HIJAB, WE DO HAVE PERSONALITIES. So even if we wear the hijab, you cannot restrict us from being our own individual self. Who are you to tell me how to behave and stuff? Who are you to even deliver such a comment? You don't even know the level of our iman so just shut up.

Stop judging others seriously, it is so annoying and frustrating. Please look at yourself first and judge yourself before telling others, "Oh I thought you've changed, but you are still the same." BS. I have the right and authority to choose what I want to show to you and my Lord. So please mind your own business.

Another thing that seriously hurt me was when you (not the same person) gave the comment "jangan pakai tudung lah". i mean seriously????? Who are you to order me and I was freaking joking. I really thought that you would at least encourage me or give words of wisdom and shit but it turned out otherwise. Do you know how hurt I was? Why not tell me to go eat pork or go take drugs? I don't understand why when I've started to wear the hijab, everyone treats me like as though I am a control freak who can't joke around. I am not a robot mind you, I am just a normal human being who is trying to improve myself for Allah's sake. Stop judging me seriously just stop.

I know this is a trial for me hope Allah gives me strength to go through this. Only allah understands me. sometimes. . you just can't trust anyone in this world. . not even your own family. Ultimately, you are the one who will walk alone and will be answerable for your deeds during akhirat. No one will help you.