On Friday I've received my A level results. It was disappointing except for the fact that I have attained an A for econs! It was disappointing that I didn't even became one of the top 50 to score 80 points and above. It was disappointing that for all these while, my history has been getting an A but during A levels, my grades totally depicted otherwise. Well it was an utter dismay to find out that my school's standard has dropped and no one managed to score a maximum points of 90 :( It is more saddening to find out when one of your smart cousins got 9 straight A's and he came out in the news. How do I avoid the comparioson that adults usually do?
So for a few days I was sad and down hearted but then who am I to feel so low when life is only a huge test? Allah, the Malik Al Qudoos, said, "Do men think that they will be left alone on saying "We believe", and that they will not be tested?" "We did test those before them, and Allah will certainly know those who are true from those who are false."[29:2-3]. I know that Allah did not answer my prayers because He knows that this dunya is only temporary and He is reserving my dua for the akhirat! (: "When Allah wills good for a servant of His, He hurries up up His punishment in this life." (Tirmidzi). I know Allah knows that this is the best for me, surely there is a hikmah behind this: "Only Allah knows about the unforeseen and what is in the land and sea"[Al An'am: 59]
Ketika Allah rindu pada hambanya, Dia akan mengirimkan sebuah hadiah istimewa melalui malaikat Jibril yang isinya adalah ujian. Dalam hadis Qudsi Allah berfirman: "Pergilah pada hambaku lalu timpakanlah berbagai ujian padanya kerana Aku ingin mendengar rintihannya.""
-HR Thabrani dari Abu Umamah
Oh Allah, I love You so much Al Wadud (': <3
