Niqabis.

لسلام عليكم
I really have great respect and admiration for Muslim women who wear the niqab. I really think they are beautiful and courageous inside as they are willing to cover their faces so as to submit to Allah SWT (InsyaAllah) and ignore a lot of harsh glares and stares. Their iman must be so strong. Hais, whenever I look at them, I feel so ugly inside and sad :( Well, last week I was walking to Causeway point and I saw this beautiful niqab lady with her small child. She was unloading her stuffs from the taxi and all the people at the taxi stand were staring at her. Some of them also gave her a very sinister smirk. I was like what the hell? Just because she choose to cover her face doesn't mean that you guys can look down on her. She could be beautiful inside (Wallahua'alam) and the fact that she choose to cover her face clearly shows how she wants to avoid the dirty male gaze and refuse to be oppressed or objectified as SEX SYMBOLS by men and society. I feel really sad when I see a lot of countries such as France, banning the niqab :( It is really insensitive of them to deprive one from his/her religious beliefs.

To be honest, this always makes me wonder why do guys always come and talk to me but instead of judging me for my inside, they will always judge me superficially. For example, whenever I am on Facebook, there will always be some idiotic guys who would compliment my looks (in a bad way, i'm not being arrogant) or ask me to do stupid bloody haram stuffs like making out or *censored*. I am actually extremely hurt when they do this and this applies to EVERY SINGLE GUY that I have met. What do you see me as? An effing sex object to satisfy your freaking disease of sexual desires?? Isn't my life sad? Well I think it is. Hmm, I think this is just a test for me as Allah wants me to wear the hijab? I don't know only Allah knows best. I have been thinking about this a gazillion times and Insyaallah I will wear the hijab once university starts/ (if i don't get into university) some other institutions. In the meantime. . .

Berniqab bukan kerana trend terkini ..
Berniqab bukan tunjuk diri alim ..
Berniqab bukan untuk merendah-rendahkan yang lain ..
Berniqab bukan utk perlekehkan Muslimin Muslimat ..

Jadi sebelum kau mulakan niqab di wajah ,
Niqabkan hatimu dulu ,
Niqabkan jiwamu dulu ,
Niqabkan lidahmu dulu ,
Niqabkan langkahmu dulu ..

Kerana yang terselindung belum tentu terus berlindung ,
Yang berbuka belum tentu buka terus ..
Berilmulah sebelum kau beramal wahai sahabat ..

Well, I hope that one day I will meet a guy that will appreciate me for who I AM INSIDE and not just for my body or face.

:'(

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I have just watched this video.
It is super beneficial and will open your minds and eyes, so I do recommend you to watch it! (:

Prom.

For prom, I just want to appear simple (partly because of the lack of $$ LOL)

I am considering dressing up like Kristen Stewart. I think this look is so cool. She looks so laidback and down-to earth unlike those other glamouruous people wearing dresses that are too costly.

hmmm, I have no idea, you got any suggestions?

p/s: The theme is hollywood

This annoys me.

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I just want to say something that is bothering my mind right now, so please bear with me :S Whenever, i'm on tumblr or whenever I open my Tumblr 's dashboard, I will never ever fail to see hate messages or messages criticizing a muslim for his actions or whatever you wanna call it. I feel that this is so disgraceful and embarassing. As Muslims, we are not suppose to hate on each other or discriminate them by belittling them. Islam teaches us about peace, not about sending hate messages and stuffs like that. For instance, if a person on Tumblr takes a picture of herself and she is not weraing a hijab, they willl be like "Why are you not wearing hijab? Omg you're haram." and stuffs like that. Well, heck who are you tell that person that he/she is haram, you don't even know them. Who are you to judge them man? If you wanna judge, judge your own self first. Look into the mirror and focus on your own imperfections and flaws. Everyone is imperfect in their own way and instead of zooming in and trying to amplify/magnify their ugly side, you should instead channel positive energy by advising them NICELY and not trying to make them feel so low and 'unholy'.

There's this quote from 'To Kill a Mockingbird': "You never really understand a person until you consider things from his point of view... until you climb into his skin and walk around in it." (Harper Lee). I believe that this quote is so powerful and beautiful. Yes, yes yes that you have to empathise that person first before judging and even if you want to judge them, you shouldn't say out whatever evil things that can cause hurt to a person. The criticism can instead worsen the situation and he/she may feel depress. What happens is between them and Allah. Allah is the Most Exalted He is the ONLY ONE that is capable of judging us. Maybe he/she looks 'unholy' outside but Wallahualam maybe his/her inside is way beautiful than ours.

Ultimately, just remember that we are going to meet Him on the day of judgement and be judge. So, what's there to judge other people? Judge youself first before you will be judge by the Almighty, Allah SWT.
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Yesterday was the day that I OFFICIALLY graduated from YJC. Well for me yesterday was the most happiest moment in history as I was FINALLY able to put away my books and rejoice life. Women in Literature was ok. . but still, as expected we kinda expect the unexpected since Cambridge chose to be nasty this year. There wasn't any poem but instead we were required to do either an unseen prose or drama so I decided to do the one on prose since we did prose for Disgrace and I had studied the analysis for dialogues. Actually, I kinda feel abit sad for leaving YJC. I'm not sad because i'm leaving my classmates (applies to SOME only, I will badly miss the rest D:) or anything, I'm just sad that I would not be able to see my beloved teachers anymore like Mrs Low, Mrs Sukir, Cikgu Noraida. Sigh, they have sacrificed ALOT for us and they are extremely good teachers. The experience in YJC had also change myself as an individual to a certain degree. No longer am I the 'scene' kid or whatever shit that I tried to align myself to be, I have actually discovered who I truly am deep inside. Amidst the studying, the sressing out and all the tense conflicts going on in YJC, those have tested me and pushed me to my limits thus forcing my true reflections and true colours to emerge. I thank God for this, Ya Rabb thank You Ya Allah :') The different people I meet also broaden my outlook in life as now I am aware that what you want cannot always exist and it is not possible to please everyone. So, just be yourself, trust your heart and hopefully Allah guides you in everything that you do.

Moving on, I decided to meet Athirah and Dwi yesterday after my paper as it has been like FOREVER since I met them. So we just chill and stuff and I feel very happy, thankful and blessed for having people like them by my side (: Ok, so the blissful moment was only for a temporary period of time and when I get back home. . . .

I think my house is becoming into a freaking haunted house :'(
Ya Allah today I will have to equip myself with Ayatul Kursi.
Please pray for my family and my safety. Jazakallah

1 huge hurdle down, another one coming. Brace yourself.

3 more days!

OHHHHHHHHH

3 MORE DAYS OMGGG I CANT WAIT!!!!