Thank you Allah

I can't believe it.

Alhamdulillah Allah! Thank you so much for guiding me before I go astray :(
Thank you allah. . thank you thank you :'(

** btw i dont wear niqab but hijab just that i just love seeing niqabis & i tried covering my face like them & took a picture. lol.

Maulid Rasul

Since tmr is 12 Rabiul Awal, it marks the birth of our beloved prophet Muhammad S.A.W. I'm not going to celebrate or anythg since the sahabis didnt do so, I will decide to type out a post based on facts on nabi Muhammad S.A.W! Dear, my Muslim brotheres and sisters, send your salams and salutations to our beloved leader as even Allah, the malaikat and the whole universe praise him(:

O beloved one, O praised-worthy one!

O Full Moon that has achieved all perfection, how can I describe your high status?
You are the one that rose above the high horizon, with your light you erased all falsehood.
O flag of Guidance, because of you the universe is lit up with lights, gifts and favours.
Our Lord, Allah, bestow blessings upon you eternally in the early  morning and evening and upon your family and companions, Allah the Lofty of loftiness, bestowed with perfection.

For you Rasulullah (':

Assalamua'alaikum

Sorry for not being able to blog these days. I do have a lot to say but sometimes, even words cannot describe my emotions. Coupled to that, I am quite busy with work everyday from Mon till Friday hence I feel overfatigue :( Well, alhamdulillah nowadays every Friday, I am able to force myself to attend any syarahan or taklim at any masjid. Normally, I would attend majilis Rasulullah S.A.W. Actually, I really love attending these majlis because you have so many interesting things that you were not aware pf pertaining to Islam! Sometimes, when I go to the masjids, I will see a lot of good muslims and muslimahs who took their time and effort to attend the majilis. Some of them look quite pious and everytime I see them, I will feel kinda sad and inferior. Still, this is a good thing that Allah wants me to see because it actually helps me strive and improve myself to become a better muslimah, insyaaAllah. Furthermore, acquiring the ukhrawi knowledge is also important and there is a hadith saying that: Safwan Ibn ‘Assal said: I came to the Prophet(peace be upon him) while he was reclining on a red coat(in the mosque) & I said to him :”O Messenger of Allah! I came to seek knowledge. He said:”Welcome knowledge seeker! Indeed the angels surround the knowledge seeker with their wings, then pile up on top of each other until they reach the lower heaven out of their love of what he is seeking.”

and there is also another hadith saying that whoever actually strives to seek knowledge, Allah SWT will make his way to paradise easy (Tirmidhi, Abu Dawud). So constantly try to pursue and attain knowledge my fellow friends! :D

Oh, btw just to let you know that there will be maulid Rasulullah S.A.W organise by MHDS at Sultan Mosque tmr! It's at 8am till 12:30 pm. I will be going with Fatin and Shahirah insyaaAllah and after that head to PRAXIS meeting till 6pm. I really cant wait for it! :D

You can join me if you want k! just let me know and I will be happy to have you accompanying me! (:

Rant.

I really dislike it when someone judge me just because I've already started wearing the hijab. Their perception and mindset is certainly flawed and narrow. They think that once someone starts to wear the hijab, she cannot make any mistake at all. Like for instance, I really hate it when someone says. . "Eh aku ingatkan kau dah berubah? Tapi macam sama jer." whenever I make a small joke or when I do something inappropriate which is not even considered a sin. Pshhh, it is annoying. There's a difference between attitude and personality. Personallity is something which defines you- it is what makes you unique from other individuals. You can have a shy personality, outgoing personality blah blah blah whatever, but I just want to say that YES all MUSLIMAHS WHO WEAR THE HIJAB, WE DO HAVE PERSONALITIES. So even if we wear the hijab, you cannot restrict us from being our own individual self. Who are you to tell me how to behave and stuff? Who are you to even deliver such a comment? You don't even know the level of our iman so just shut up.

Stop judging others seriously, it is so annoying and frustrating. Please look at yourself first and judge yourself before telling others, "Oh I thought you've changed, but you are still the same." BS. I have the right and authority to choose what I want to show to you and my Lord. So please mind your own business.

Another thing that seriously hurt me was when you (not the same person) gave the comment "jangan pakai tudung lah". i mean seriously????? Who are you to order me and I was freaking joking. I really thought that you would at least encourage me or give words of wisdom and shit but it turned out otherwise. Do you know how hurt I was? Why not tell me to go eat pork or go take drugs? I don't understand why when I've started to wear the hijab, everyone treats me like as though I am a control freak who can't joke around. I am not a robot mind you, I am just a normal human being who is trying to improve myself for Allah's sake. Stop judging me seriously just stop.

I know this is a trial for me hope Allah gives me strength to go through this. Only allah understands me. sometimes. . you just can't trust anyone in this world. . not even your own family. Ultimately, you are the one who will walk alone and will be answerable for your deeds during akhirat. No one will help you.

Maybe I'm being too quick to judge and not contemplating or pondering over the other things that you have done for us.
I don't know, I'm very sad now. I wish everyone would disappear. . wait, no, I wish I will disappear from this dunya.

You never existed, never.

Despite your physical presence, you never once in my life existed in my heart, I am being honest here. Thank you for persistently breaking our hearts.

"Ohana means family and family means no one gets left behind." Ironically, thanks for leaving us.

I miss Allah, I miss Rasulullah S.A.W, I miss jannah, i miss Makkah, I miss Madinah, I miss Al Aqsa :'(