#Justareminder

For those of you who have been partying all night long and being too happy during this new yr. . just remember. This new year, it means that 1 year has passed. Don't be too happy as you have to realise that we are being closer to the Hour and Death. Every minute, every second matters. Think about it. What if you were to die today, tomorrow? What if you were to die NOW?

My beautiful 2012(':

Yesterday was amazing subahanAllah. It was my first time spending the last hours of 2011 with the ummah of beloved Nabi Muhammad S.A.W, out in the open space (at YCK stadium) and at night, we managed to sit under the Moon and the Stars witnessing our 'celebration'. I did not regret going for the syarahan and  in all honesty, this is my first time actually going for a syarahan voluntarily! Alhamdulillah ya Rabb. During the event, masyaaAllah there were many pious people (you can see the Nur from their faces glowing). All the men, women, kids and teenagers dressed up appropriately and modestly ya Allah. I love to look at them and how they dress! If you were to compare these Muslims to all the people who were down for countdown party, they dressed up so plesantly for the eyes to look at, unlike those who wore skimpish clothing. The most beautiful part of the event was sending salams to Rasulullah S.A.W. We actually recited some Qaseedas, selawats and heard the recitation of surah An-Naba' from this young boy who has the most beautiful voice(': I am sooo blissful and in a frenzy state of euphoria. . I am so happy that I managed to send loads of salams and selwat to beloved prophet S.A.W! I miss him so much Wallahi :( I hope that he will be happy to see how his ummah was sending him selawats and praising Allah SWT! After that, there were some ceramah and syarahan by certain ustaz pertaining to how we should improve ourselves and set our direction in order to embrace this new change to 2012. What I've learnt was that you need:

1. Ilmu
2. Zikir & selawat byk2 ke Rasulullah S.A.W
3. Improve your akhlak with ppl (if not ppl would hate you & wouldn't want to mix ard with you)
4. Tahajjud
5. Spread Da'awah (don't just spread only to Muslim ppl, spread to non Muslims also!)
6. Jihad Feesabilillah (struggle for the sake of Allah SWT)

InsyaaAllah on this day 1 Jan 2012, I will strive to be a better muslimah for the sake of Allah SWT! I love you Allah SWT & Nabi Muhammad S.A.W <33333333

Forever in my heart(':

For now, my inspiration will be Rabiatul Aadawiyah: I want to become like her- Wali Allah (minus the not marrying part! :P)

Disillusioned

I am sooo confused right now, really, I swear I am. I just log into Tumblr and all those politics stuffs (as usual) flooded my dashboard. I tend to follow human rights activists and politically active bloggers who really knows the hell what is going on in the countries that are suffering from injustices. Apparently, I just got to know from this favourite political, Syrian blogger of mine, that some of the photos being reblogged on tumblr about the Palestinian cause are not ALWAYS from Palestine. Some of them originated from Syria but ignorant people tend to just reblog those photos without checking the source. Well, what i believe is that it is absolutely unfair for the Syrians to suffer and for people to just label the photos under the sufferings of the Palestinians. I wish I haven't been reblogging such photos from Syria and just claiming it to be under the Palestinian cause. Sigh, maybe my knowledge about the world is not wide enough :( I guess I have to read up more. And another thing, I always wonder if being an anti semite. . is it acceptable? I know being anti Semitic is all about hating Jews and discriminating them which is equivalent to racism but isn't the Jews 'kaum yang terlaknat'? Even Allah SWT mention alot about the Jews in the Quran and how merekalah kaum yang terpaling terkutuk di sisi Allah kerana mereka sombong terhadap Allah SWT. They also kill prophets and merekalah musuh ummat Islam and when the Hour comes, the Muslims will be fighting with the Kuffars (led by Al Masih Ad Dajjal) and the army will consist of Jews (and other kafiroons). However, Nabi Muhammad S.A.W once mentioned that, "You should know that no Arab is superior over a non-Arab and, no non-Arab is superior over any Arab, no white is superior over black and no black is superior over white. Superiority is by righteousness and God-fearing [alone]." (Ibn Hanbal, Musnad, 411). Hence, is anti-semitism allowed? I am so confused right now. Sigh, I have already told my friends that I will create a post relating to the Palestinian conflict but when I see how shallow my knowledge is about zionism and stuffs and with the INTELLECTUAL POLITICAL ACTIVISTS following my Tumblr (who knows more shit than me), I might be subjected to disapprovals and more hate messages. So, I'm so sorry. . for now, I will have to build up my knowledge about the Palestinian conflict, Syria and more. i apologize for the inconvenience caused. When things & disagreements on Tumblr have subsided, I will try my best insyaaAllah to post an entry explaining zionism, palestinian conflict and stuffs. If Allah wills(: I hope Allah will answer my questions and doubts in my heart by guiding me :(

For Allah's sake.

“One will not be a true believer unless he loves for his brother what he loves for himself.” (Bukhari, Muslim, Nasa’i, Ahmed and Ibn Majah)

I just want to say that for those of you who are changing for Allah's sake, I am so proud and happy for you. I know that it is not easy cos I, myself, am going through that process now. Trust me ya ukhthi, that once you take the first step, I promise you that it will be the most beautiful step & feeling ever taken. You know, Allah created our souls, our ruh, our jasad and everything. Our life on Earth is only temporary, our bodies belong to Him. Everything belongs to Him. We are being created just so as to worship our Mighty Rabb. We borrow the bodies that He has created for us only to achieve the eternal life- in jannah (if we are good). Once the soul is detached from the One who created us, our souls will mourn, grief and will be deprived from His Nur. Everyday, we will feel sad, loss. . searching for that something that can fill up our empty hearts. Yes my friend, and that is Allah. Once You found him, His Light, His Nur will fill your hearts. . that even in the darkest hour, your heart will be subahanAllah tranquil, placid.

Let me give an example. Being a child, of course he will always need his mother & presence of his mother. Once his mother is absent from his sight, he will cry and feel scared, lost and hurt. Same goes for us. Allah is our caretaker, our Guidance, He is our Everything. Once you've lost Him, there is no way You are going to find Him. . except only if He wills and with his Hidayat. Ever wonder why rich singers and superstars these days such as Britney Spears, Amy Winehouse and more always seem to be taking drugs, going in and out of jail repeatedly? Well, they do not have Allah's guidance. That is why they feel empty inside and hence resort to all these bad habits to fill up the huge space and vacumn within them. It is true what Allah says in surah 22:46 that "It is not the eyes that are blind, but it is their hearts which are in their breasts."  Allah is all we need my friend. Allah is "The Light of the heavens and the earth. The Parable of His Light is as if there were a Niche and within it a Lamp enclosed in Glass: the glass as it were a brilliant star: Lit from a blessed Tree, an olive, neither of the east nor of the west, whose oil is well-nigh luminous, though fire scarce touched it: Light upon Light! Allah does guide whom He will to His Light" (An Nur:35) (This is my most fav ayat in the Quran btw! :D)

I am very thankful that Allah has guided me to Him, to His love, to where I initially belong. I hope Allah continues to guide me and my friends. I hope that all of you will receive His guidance and remember! Always pray for Him to guide You as once you've lost His Light, your soul will always be lonely forever and darkness will engulf you. That will be the most magnificent loss you will ever experience till you die :'(

Dimana kan ku cari ganti serupa denganmu?

I just have to say what is on my heart and mind lately.. . I miss Rasulullah S.A.W ;'(
I know, some people might find this ridiculous (the kuffar) as they will think that we muslims have never seen Rasulullah S.A.W before and therefore how can we miss him?
But when you know his struggles and sacrifices that he faced just for his ummah. . it is enough to make you touched, humble and sad. His stories are all masyaaAllah heart-warming and his character is subahanAllah- even words cannot describe his character. I really miss Rasulullah S.A.W :'(

Whenever I am on Youtube, I will always watch this show series called "Law Kana Bainana" (If the beloved were among us) and they will interview certain people and ask them about their reactions if Nabi Muhammad S.A.W is alive and were to sit with us for 1 minute. Everytime, I watch this show, I will always cry and imagine what will I do if Rasulullah S.A.W were to sit infront of me? For me, if Rasulullah S.A.W was infront of me, I would cry non-stop first because of the embarassment that I feel for being such a bad muslimah and cry because of his beauty- as radiant as the white moon. Then I would ask him to read the Quran together with me just for that 1 minute. . I would be so blissful and at peace. No words would ever be able to describe my emotions. I am sure all the baraqah and blessings will come if Rasulullah is with us right now.

If Rasulullah is with me right now, he can guide me to become a better muslimah. .He can guide my family. Especially my family ya Allah (but of course, Allah is the One who guides us ultimately). .What has become of us ;'(

I believe that his ummah would be in good hands. . but look now, the Muslims are being oppressed in Chechnya, Palestine, Iraq and more. Masjidil Al Aqsa is calling for our help. But all I am doing now is just watching the pain and anguish suffered by my brothers and sisters. How heartless I am? If Rasulullah S.A.W were among us now, the world would be illuminated irridescently just like the luminous stars twinkling in the velvet sky. I really hope that I can meet Rasulullah S.A.W during the akhirat. I really hope that I can stand near him at the Padang Masyar but then again, who am I to wish for all these when there are more pious people who deserve them all? :( I really miss you Ya Rasulullah ;'( I really do.

Selawat ke atas Nabi.
*Sorry for the bad grammar & vocab. .I just want to express my most humblest feelings in my heart.

Short Vacation.

لسلام عليكم
My apologies for not being able to update my blog for such a long time! I was away on a vacation with my family to KL in order to visit my cousin and just chill with her. It was fun alhamdulillah, ok I shall not type any long posts as I am too lazy to do so.

(This was at the hotel :P)

(Went to Genting on the 2nd day)

And now I know how it literally feels like to commit suicide!

 ( Went to Putrajaya & cousin's place on the 3rd day)

(The inside of the mosque, mA amazing!)

Change is the only constant.

Yesterday when I was on my Twitter account, my cousin sent me this msg:

So I asked her what did she meant by that. She told me that I was different in the sense that my attitude has changed as compared to the old me. I didn't know that the change was drastic. Wallah hu 'alam but all I hope for is that I can constantly improve myself and be a better muslimah, insyaa Allah.

Note to self: Death can happen anytime