D-day

Well that's it, tommorrow's going to be the big day. . RESULTS! After all the hard work and sweat, the results are finally going to be released tommorrow. I feel berserk . .I feel nervous, jittery, butterflies in my stomach, apprehensive, and the emotions can go on and on. I am actually a very anxious and worrisome person. I tend to get worried about things easily but then, I've decided for A levels, i should stop wasting my energy thinking about something in which i have no control of. So I will think of allah, tawakkal and how illogical and ridiculous it is for me to worry over something so trivial when others in Syria, Chechnya, Palestine are worrying and fighting for their lives.

So whatever happens tommorrow, it's all written and fated in Luh Al Mahfuz and only Allah knows what's best for me(: Because Allah states that: "Allah is the Wali (Protector & helper) of the Muttaqun"[45:19]. I am sure Allah will help me and answer my prayers. "so verily, with the hardship, there is relief, verily with the hardship, there is relief"[94:5-6].

Lastly, Munira please tawakkal and whatever the outcome is, just know that it is the BEST for you cause ultimately Allah knows what is best for you when you do not. Put your trust and faith in Him as "He will provide him from sources he could never have imagine. And whoever puts his trust in Allah, then He will suffice him."[65:3]
Hasbbi rabbi, jalAllah, mafiiqalbi ghairullah(:

Love

I don't understand teenagers nowadays. They get so upset easily over love and allow themselves to be subjected and succumbed to heartbreaks and heartaches. . all due to the name of LOVE. Ironic isn't it? What is worse, is that some people totally feel upset over the fact that they do not have any boyfriends/ lovers or whatever. Ok, i'm not trying to be mean here, I am just so upset when girls especially put themselves in a position that portray themselves to be hopeless and vulnerable. Come on girls, why do you have to drown yourself in sorrows just because you don't receive any attention or love from boys? Another thing, girls, why do you always have to throw negative remarks to yourselves? Why do you always have to bring yourself down by claiming that you are fat or that your body does not align to the 'ideal' type of  body. You are all so beautiful, do you know that? Do you know your status in Islam is very high? Islam honours and treasure their women so much but it is only depressing when you realise how so many women are not aware of this and tend to discriminate and bring themselves down.

Firstly, I believe that is very shallow and narrow minded for one to relate and define love as having boyfriend/girlfriend- that they can only feel 'loved' when their bfs/ gfs are around. This reflects how illiterate and confined your mind is. Whenever, you think so you are actually ignoring Allah SWT, you are insulting Him ya Allah :( Can you see how he provides for you everything?? Your food, clothes, shelter.

With Allah, in the stars coruscation, the clouds knitting and the moon's light. With Allah, there is the thunder's rumbling, the lightning's flash and the pouring rain as a form of barakah and sustenance for water. With Allah, there is the swashing sea and the magnificent sun proceding to its lodgement as a form of light for all to carry out activities, heat and everything. With Allah, it's level lands, valleys and huge mountains. With Allah, He can hear the ants creepage no matter when and where it passes by and look after them. With Allah, while bees are drinking honey and protecting its picking and its panging, He provides honey as a form of medicine to cure diseases.

With Allah, there is the whole universe and the orbits with the planets rotating at such a beautiful pace. With allah. . there is you and me :'(

How Oh Muslim sisters can you ignore Allah's gifts to us? How so, oh muslim sister can you not return Allah's love when He already showed magnificent signs that He loves you? :'( How so oh muslim sister, can you limit your boundary of love and channel them only to a mere human being? How so Oh Allah, can You be so Patient and how so Oh Al Wadud can you not be angry and punish those who ignore You? How so Oh Rabb can you be so kind and merciful when others ascribe you with partners? Oh Allah, You are so Kind and Loving :( How can you oh muslim sister, ignore Allah when He already states  that He is willing to help You when you are in need?

"Take one step towards me, I will take ten steps towards you. Walk towards me, I will run towards you." [Hadith Qudsi]
"When My servants ask thee concerning Me, I am indeed close. I listen to the prayer of every suppliant when he calleth on Me: Let them also, with a will, Listen to My call, and believe in Me, That they may walk in the right way." [2:186]

How so oh muslim sister can you deliberately cut off from Allah by refusing to meet Him during salat? He is already patiently waiting for You and you did not bother to thank Him for everything? How so oh sister. . ? :'( :'(

Thank you Allah

I can't believe it.

Alhamdulillah Allah! Thank you so much for guiding me before I go astray :(
Thank you allah. . thank you thank you :'(

** btw i dont wear niqab but hijab just that i just love seeing niqabis & i tried covering my face like them & took a picture. lol.

Maulid Rasul

Since tmr is 12 Rabiul Awal, it marks the birth of our beloved prophet Muhammad S.A.W. I'm not going to celebrate or anythg since the sahabis didnt do so, I will decide to type out a post based on facts on nabi Muhammad S.A.W! Dear, my Muslim brotheres and sisters, send your salams and salutations to our beloved leader as even Allah, the malaikat and the whole universe praise him(:

O beloved one, O praised-worthy one!

O Full Moon that has achieved all perfection, how can I describe your high status?
You are the one that rose above the high horizon, with your light you erased all falsehood.
O flag of Guidance, because of you the universe is lit up with lights, gifts and favours.
Our Lord, Allah, bestow blessings upon you eternally in the early  morning and evening and upon your family and companions, Allah the Lofty of loftiness, bestowed with perfection.

For you Rasulullah (':

Assalamua'alaikum

Sorry for not being able to blog these days. I do have a lot to say but sometimes, even words cannot describe my emotions. Coupled to that, I am quite busy with work everyday from Mon till Friday hence I feel overfatigue :( Well, alhamdulillah nowadays every Friday, I am able to force myself to attend any syarahan or taklim at any masjid. Normally, I would attend majilis Rasulullah S.A.W. Actually, I really love attending these majlis because you have so many interesting things that you were not aware pf pertaining to Islam! Sometimes, when I go to the masjids, I will see a lot of good muslims and muslimahs who took their time and effort to attend the majilis. Some of them look quite pious and everytime I see them, I will feel kinda sad and inferior. Still, this is a good thing that Allah wants me to see because it actually helps me strive and improve myself to become a better muslimah, insyaaAllah. Furthermore, acquiring the ukhrawi knowledge is also important and there is a hadith saying that: Safwan Ibn ‘Assal said: I came to the Prophet(peace be upon him) while he was reclining on a red coat(in the mosque) & I said to him :”O Messenger of Allah! I came to seek knowledge. He said:”Welcome knowledge seeker! Indeed the angels surround the knowledge seeker with their wings, then pile up on top of each other until they reach the lower heaven out of their love of what he is seeking.”

and there is also another hadith saying that whoever actually strives to seek knowledge, Allah SWT will make his way to paradise easy (Tirmidhi, Abu Dawud). So constantly try to pursue and attain knowledge my fellow friends! :D

Oh, btw just to let you know that there will be maulid Rasulullah S.A.W organise by MHDS at Sultan Mosque tmr! It's at 8am till 12:30 pm. I will be going with Fatin and Shahirah insyaaAllah and after that head to PRAXIS meeting till 6pm. I really cant wait for it! :D

You can join me if you want k! just let me know and I will be happy to have you accompanying me! (:

Rant.

I really dislike it when someone judge me just because I've already started wearing the hijab. Their perception and mindset is certainly flawed and narrow. They think that once someone starts to wear the hijab, she cannot make any mistake at all. Like for instance, I really hate it when someone says. . "Eh aku ingatkan kau dah berubah? Tapi macam sama jer." whenever I make a small joke or when I do something inappropriate which is not even considered a sin. Pshhh, it is annoying. There's a difference between attitude and personality. Personallity is something which defines you- it is what makes you unique from other individuals. You can have a shy personality, outgoing personality blah blah blah whatever, but I just want to say that YES all MUSLIMAHS WHO WEAR THE HIJAB, WE DO HAVE PERSONALITIES. So even if we wear the hijab, you cannot restrict us from being our own individual self. Who are you to tell me how to behave and stuff? Who are you to even deliver such a comment? You don't even know the level of our iman so just shut up.

Stop judging others seriously, it is so annoying and frustrating. Please look at yourself first and judge yourself before telling others, "Oh I thought you've changed, but you are still the same." BS. I have the right and authority to choose what I want to show to you and my Lord. So please mind your own business.

Another thing that seriously hurt me was when you (not the same person) gave the comment "jangan pakai tudung lah". i mean seriously????? Who are you to order me and I was freaking joking. I really thought that you would at least encourage me or give words of wisdom and shit but it turned out otherwise. Do you know how hurt I was? Why not tell me to go eat pork or go take drugs? I don't understand why when I've started to wear the hijab, everyone treats me like as though I am a control freak who can't joke around. I am not a robot mind you, I am just a normal human being who is trying to improve myself for Allah's sake. Stop judging me seriously just stop.

I know this is a trial for me hope Allah gives me strength to go through this. Only allah understands me. sometimes. . you just can't trust anyone in this world. . not even your own family. Ultimately, you are the one who will walk alone and will be answerable for your deeds during akhirat. No one will help you.